New Look

I spent the whole of last night to revamp my blog. I wanted to give it a fresh new look. Worked until late midnight and taa-daa! Now you're looking at my blog's new look! ^_^

Originally, I started blogging when I slumped into depression few years back. I needed a space to let out my frustrations, anger and misery caused by my infertility problems. Then I stopped because I just couldn't continue writing about my despair anymore. It hurts too much and I'm tired of feeling sad and incomplete all the time.

Late last year, a few friends started blogging about their kids. I envy them because I have no such stories to share. My blog was only filled with sorrow. Then I started this new blog because I wanted a new start. As I blogged, I am blessed with words of encouragement and support from good friends. A good friend started to share positive articles with me and slowly I'm uplifted from the gloom.

And so, I changed my blog name some time ago, to keep reminding myself to "dance even when I'm in the rain". This will be the place I share the stories about my quest to motherhood. This will be the place I want to share not only my sorrow, but about my happiness, my love, my life, my friends.

Some wonder why I do not post up my pic and details. I am not ready to publicly disclose my identity yet. Not until my miracle baby arrives. I need to protect myself and I have the obligations to protect my hubby and my family. My health problem remains a secret to most family members, especially my in-laws. I do not want them to stumble upon my blog while surfing on the web. I am still hoping that my in-laws will not have to find out about this - ever.

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肚子懒惰？？？？？

昨天趁午休时间陪朋友到大众书局去晃晃。众所周知，皇后广场的大众就只有那么“大”。翻翻看看，走遍了整个书局就开始觉得有点无聊了。在等待朋友付钱的当儿，我无所事事地继续闲逛-虽然我在同一个地方兜了好多圈。。呵呵。。。

突然，我瞄到了一本书。“咦，远看好像是关于排毒的，肚子懒惰哦，好奇怪的书名。”好奇之下，就趋前去看，一看不得了，快把我笑翻了。想不到我们这里竟然还有人敢出版这种书耶！我对作者真的是佩服得五体投地。

大家也来“大开眼界”喽~~ 有兴趣对书本内容一探究竟的朋友，可以到皇后广场的大众书局去购买哦！呵呵。。。

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Set Yourself Free - Letting Go of Perfection

This is such a good article that a wonderful friend shared. It is indeed a mirror to myself.

How many times have I done things just to please other people, just to seek of their approval. How many times have I smiled and laughed with other people, but was actually bitter inside. There is nothing wrong to be imperfect, no one is perfect!

I've learned that the moment I begin to accept my "disability", I've liberated myself from the mental torture that I've been putting myself through this 5 long years. I still experience the emotional downs from time to time, but I feel better about myself now by trying to keep my spirit up and by being positive - by telling myself "it's ok". And I'm so thankful to be blessed with friends who constantly remind me that I'm not an alien. :-)

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It is good to remember that one of our goals in life is to not be perfect. We often lose track of this aspiration. When we make mistakes, we think that we are failing or not measuring up. But if life is about experimenting, experiencing, and learning, then to be imperfect is a prerequisite. Life becomes much more interesting once we let go of our quest for perfection and aspire for imperfection instead.

This doesn’t mean that we don’t strive to be our best. We simply accept that there is no such thing as perfection—especially in life. All living things are in a ceaseless state of movement. Even as you read this, your hair is growing, your cells are dying and being reborn, and your blood is moving through your veins. Your life changes more than it stays the same. Perfection may happen in a moment, but it will not last because it is an impermanent state. Trying to hold on to perfection or forcing it to happen causes frustration and unhappiness.

In spite of this, many of us are in the habit of trying to be perfect. One way to nudge ourselves out of this tendency is to look at our lives and notice that no one is judging us to see whether or not we are perfect. Sometimes, perfectionism is a holdover from our childhood—an ideal we inherited from a demanding parent. We are adults now, and we can choose to let go of the need to perform for someone else’s approval. Similarly, we can choose to experience the universe as a loving place where we are free to be imperfect. Once we realize this, we can begin to take ourselves less seriously and have more fun. Imperfection is inherent to being human. By embracing your imperfections, you embrace yourself.

Be confident and proud!

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Celine Dion - Let's Talk About Love

In times like these, this is the song that all of us need! Regardless of race, skin color or religion, deep down inside we are all the same - we are humans.



Everywhere I go - all the places that I’ve been
我到过的每一个地方
Every smile's a new horizon on a land I’ve never seen
每一丝微笑都是陌生的土地崭新的天际
There are people around the world - different faces different names
这个世界上有许多的人 - 不同的面孔不同的名字
But there's one true emotion that reminds me we're the same...
却有一种情感提醒我 我们是相同的。。。
Let's talk about love
让我们来说爱

From the laughter of a child - to the tears of a grown man
从一个孩子的微笑到一个成人的眼泪
There's a thread that runs right through us and helps us understand
有一根线把我们所有人都连在了一起 让我们懂得
As subtle as a breeze that fans a flicker to a flame
像轻柔的微风把若隐若现的萤火吹成到熊熊的火焰
From the very first sweet melody to the very last refrain...
从最初甜美的回忆到最后的苦痛

Let's talk about love
让我们来说爱
Let's talk about us
让我们来说我们
Let's talk about life
让我们来说生命
Let's talk about trust
让我们来说信任
Let's talk about love
让我们来说爱

It's the king of all who live and the queen of all good hearts
它是万物之灵 美好心灵之母
It's the ace you may keep up your sleeve till the name is all but lost
它是你可以珍藏的法宝 直到生命渐渐消失
As deep as any sea - with the rage of any storm
它和大海一样深远 - 像风暴一般猛烈
But as gentle as a falling leaf on any autumn morn...
却又如秋日清晨的落叶一般轻柔

Let's talk about love - it's all we're needing
让我们来说爱 - 它是我们所需要的全部
Let's talk about us - the air we're breathing
让我们来说我们 - 我们呼吸的空气
Let's talk about life - I wanna know you
让我们来说生命 - 我要了解你
Let's talk about trust - I wanna show you
让我们来说信任 - 我要让你看
Let's talk about love
让我们来说爱

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New Motto, New Journey

I changed my blog title to "Dancing in the Rain". I guess there has been changes to my mentality recently. I'm tired of sulking, tired of being sad. So now, I've decided to learn to embrace what I have now, whether it's happiness or sadness. I've decided to learn to dance in the rain, to enjoy life even when life is not perfect! Who's is anyway! :-)

Like a friend said: "It's all in your mind." We decide whether we want to be happy or not. So why do I have to keep punishing myself for something that is obviously not my fault? There is more to life than this. My mission in life should not be limited to this only, my goals should not be limited to fulfilling other people's wants!

Not to say that I do not want a child of my own. I DO! I envy people with children to love, I envy their 'complete' families, I envy friends with babies whom they can endlessly brag about. I might do the same if I have babies. If I'm blessed with a child in the future, that will be my miracle gift that I will be ever so thankful for! If I'm destined to be childless, life goes on! Crying, sulking, blaming God, being angry will not help make my life any better, it will only make me miserable than ever!

Wish me luck in this new journey I've chosen to embark on!

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