屈指一算，对抗这个顽疾也有5年了。。。时间过得好快。看了无数个西医，中医；打针，吃药，验血等等。。。竟然就过了5 年。有点难以置信。难过，伤心，自责，背着这个包袱也这么久了；感觉有点可怕。真的好累。。。快乐两个字也已变得好陌生。即使去旅游，我心里何时真正轻松过。最后一次开怀大笑是什么时候，我也已忘了。这种日子我还得过多久呢？我什么时候才能得到解脱啊？我这个遥不可及的梦想能够实现吗？I never stopped wondering...
Watched "Changeling" last night. Never expect that I would enjoy the movie that much. What's funny is hubby didn't even recognise that the lady in that movie is actually Angelina Jolie. I just had to knock his head! (>_<)||
It claims that it is based on a a true story but I don't know about that. Changeling basically tells the story of a single mother whose son went missing in the 1920s'. She did what noone else dared to do, just to look for her son.
This movie got me thinking about a couple of things:-
1) The love of a mother, what a mother is capable of doing when her son is at stake, the sacrifices she is willing to make. She refused to give up hope even to the very last minute.
2) How 1 person can make such a big difference. We will not know what we are capable of until when we are pushed to the edge. Survival.
3) How corruption destroys innocent people's lives. This led me to thinking about the current political drama in Malaysia. How many lives have these ruthless, inhumane, selfish politicians destroyed just for the sake of their own interests? There are parts in the movie that somehow mirrored some of the things in our beloved country, just so familiar. Angelina was thrown into the asylum for no reason just because she was a threat to the authorities - ISA?
I'd highly recommend anyone to watch this. It might be boring to some, but to me, it is a great movie.
I have been suffering from an immense shoulder/neck pain that is really killing me. I tried to stay away from pain killers, but the patches don't seem to help. It is torturing to lie down, and even to sit. I haven't been able to sleep well, causing me to feel tired during the day.
On top of that, I'm still coughing, making me feel breathless at times.
AND, to make things worse, my hormone is going haywire crazy - worse than ever. Since the first spotting on the 8th, it's been on & off. Observed an increase on Sat. & Sun., then back to the spotting again. Then all of a sudden the big splash today, when I thought it all ended last nite.
What is happening to me?!?! I've been taking different types of med prescriptions to cater to my condition now. I have to endure all the discomfort, cramps and pain, and sleepless nites. I am so tired. Tired of being worried, tired of hoping, tired of taking meds, tired of going to the doctor...
What have I done wrong to deserve such torment?! Am I asking too much just to be normal?! I kept praying but why.. why do I feel that noone is listening?
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