When the world says, "Give up!" ; Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."

Monday, March 30, 2009

摆脱便秘蔬果汁

有个朋友为了宝贝女儿的便秘问题极度苦恼,四处搜寻秘方,还以身试药;真是最苦父母心。我对她的耐心和耐力真的是佩服佩服。看她如此着急,我也希望可以伸于援手。

近来我正阅读一些关于蔬果汁的书籍,看到了一篇关于舒缓便秘的蔬果汁处方,就扫描出来和她分享。心想既然已经扫描出来了,就顺便公布在这里让大家看看。我本身还未喝过,所以效果如何还不得而知。可是有朋友喝这本书里的排毒和瘦身处方,每天四杯;两个月后,她竟然在没有节食的情况下毫无预料地瘦了5公斤,而且皮肤变好了。所以我想,喝蔬果汁有一定的益处吧。

我不懂这个处方能不能帮到我朋友的孩子。可是如果大家有任何可以帮助小童摆脱便秘情况的秘方,请毫不吝啬地留言分享!感恩!Photobucket

资料摘自:吴永志 《不一样的自然疗法》

P/S: 后记:刚读到朋友的部落格,她女儿的情况有进展了~ Photobucket 不是喝这个处方的,可是还是欢迎大家有秘方的依然可以大方分享哦!

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恶心的鹿胎盘药粉

一想到要吃含有鹿胎盘的药粉心里就有疙瘩,感觉好像很残忍。经过老公一再地解说这并没有伤害到鹿的生命,只是拿了它们生小鹿的胎盘,我昨天才放心开始吃药。

吃了药粉,半夜睡觉时竟然还可以感觉那股恶心的味道在我嘴里徘徊,忍得受不了了还起身刷牙。呵呵。。.每一次吃完药粉确实有热热的感觉,可是味道就不敢恭维。Photobucket 如果可以选择,我当然不愿意吃。可是苦口良药,既然下定决心要用中医调理,我就得硬着头皮撑下去,不可以半途而废。还好不是叫我喝用这个熬的药汤。

好奇的我在网上搜寻了一些关于鹿胎盘的功效。

鹿胎盘的功能: 性温、有补益气血、温肾填经之功效。可治疗虚损瘦弱、盗汗遗精、阳痿不举、月经不调、产后缺乳。是冷冬进补之佳品,可提高机体抵力,增强免疫力。

功能: 调经活血、温宫止带、多用于月经调,气血两亏、久不受孕、行血腹痛、腰酸腿痛,四肢无力、产后腰痛等各种妇科疾病。同时又能调节内分泌、具有美容、养颜、长寿之功效。

鹿胎: 含有丰富的氨基酸, 维生素, 钙, 铁, 锌等元素, 有补气血, 调经, 壮阳, 补虚, 美容养颜的作用。中医认为鹿胎可补气养血, 调经散寒, 用于肾虚精亏, 精血不足。

鹿胎盘主治: 月经不调, 宫冷不孕, 崩带漏下, 肾虚体弱, 结核, 肝炎等服之为好。

鹿胎膏的功效:
1. 调节内分沁: 鹿胎含有多种防疫成分, 具有调节内分泌, 有"补美天真, 滋溢少火, 药性温和, 为温补之上的"之美称。
2. 具有增强性功能的作用: 精血不足, 虚寒腹痛, 崩漏, 带下, 子宫虚冷, 性激素分泌过少, 而引起的性冷淡痛症。
3. 具有调经散寒的作用: 经期小腹疼痛, 血色不好, 经期延长, 寒病带下, 阴道有异味, 久不孕育等有显著疗效。
4. 具有补气益血的作用: 对于气血两亏, 面色苍白, 四肢无力, 经血过少, 虚弱过瘦, 过度疲劳均以及产妇生产后体虚补身都有疗效。
5. 重点: 具有美容抗衰老的作用: 鹿胎膏具有防止色素形成的作用, 能明显增强体内氧化物活性, 达到防斑, 祛班, 滋补养颜的效果。久服能增强体质, 消除疲劳, 促进新陈代谢, 提高机体免疫力, 利于延年益寿。

适用人群:
1)体质虚弱、面容苍白憔悴、双目无神、手脚冰凉的女性。
2)色斑增多、皱纹增多、皮肤干涩松弛的女性。
3)失眠、多梦、健忘、腰酸乏力、多汗人群。
4)痛经、月经不适的女性。
5)性功能下降的人群。
6)需要补肾的成人。

功效看起来还蛮多的,有兴趣的朋友可以向你们的中医师询问哦!

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Sunday, March 29, 2009

幸运彩虹

在整理手机里的档案时找到了这张照片。照片是不久前在我妈家用手机拍的,所以照片素质没那么好。这是我看过最“完整”的彩虹耶!

那时我和弟弟好兴奋-请别笑我幼稚啦。还记得我兴奋地叫老公看彩虹的时候,老公还冷冷地说:“彩虹罢了嘛,看到不要看了,你没有看过咩?” 那时我真的很想拿东西狠狠地往他头上敲。这个人简直就是个大木头嘛! Photobucket

有人说,看到彩虹是很幸运的。而且对于佛家,彩虹是吉祥的象征。所以我把这幸运彩虹和大家一起分享喽~ 愿大家凡事都有幸运之神的眷顾,心想事成!
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Saturday, March 28, 2009

第二次针灸

今天一早就到陈医师那里去报到。我像小学生交功课那样战战兢兢地把我的BBT Chart拿出来,她看了看就如往常一样摇了摇头。我的基础体温还是维持在35.8左右,太低了。那时候的我竟然开始觉得好笑。陈医师上星期开的药是很热气的,她还一而再再而三地叮咛我要多喝水,哪知我吃了一个星期的药竟然没感觉耶!我的身体也未免太厉害了吧。

陈医师: “嗯。。。这一次我真的要给你吃胎盘了。。。这个药粉会比较贵,也会比较难吃。。。”

我:“啊。。。要咩。。不要可以吗?很恶心咧。。。这不会是人的吧?” (快吐了)

陈医师:“是鹿的啦,人的太腥了。” (我要呕了) “你的病情毫无起色,我接下来每星期要配合针灸。今天要不要扎针,你之前也试过一次了对吗?”

老公: “今天做去咯。。。”

我:“啊。。。扎针?今天?不然下星期才开始啦。。很痛咧。。。”

老公: “今天开始咯。。。”

我:“又不是扎你,又不是你的肉。。。”

老公: “。。。。。” (无言)

我:“Ok la ok la, 今天开始啦。。。” (心不甘情不愿)

今天扎针的方法有点不一样,这次的针有通电,让我的脚抽了整20分钟。从下腹到脚跟总共扎了26针, 比之前多,也比之前痛。那个时候,我突然感觉莫名的委屈,眼泪不听使唤地掉。疗程完后我还是跛着脚走出诊所的。我为什么要吃我百般不愿吃的药,还要受这种折磨?为什么?

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Friday, March 27, 2009

同是天涯沦落人

今天在很偶然的机会下,找到了一位女生的部落格。她写的文章深深地触动了我。或许这是因为同是天涯沦落人,她有很多和我一样的感受;而这种感受与经历是我身边的朋友和家人都没办法理解的。阅读她写的心情纪录让我有心痛的感觉,好苦。她把我无法表达的心里话淋漓尽致地写出来了!心里一股冲动,所以第一次在一个陌生人的部落格里留了言。很快的,我们有了最初的交流。她在我的部落格里写下了以下的留言,让我湿了眼眶的留言。。。


这是我对My Fertility Diary的回复:-

真的很感谢你给我的留言,让我湿了眼眶,好感动好感动。特别是一句“我来看你了”,感觉就好像是认识了多年的老朋友,好窝心。我真的很珍惜这偶然的缘分。

你说得对,我们这种期待好孕的女生确实不会有多少个理解我们的朋友。一些好友在不断听我诉苦后,不知不觉地就疏远了。我并不怪她们,这只因为她们不懂得要怎么安慰我。

你并不无聊啊,因为我也和你一样。我没有一天觉得自己没有用,觉得对老公有无比的愧疚。他要不是娶了我,我想他早已经儿女成群了。至今我也想不到一个老公不会离开我的理由。人心善变,多年以后的事没有人可以预料啊,更何况他有我这么“不足”的老婆。好多次,我自私地希望问题出在老公身上,因为那样我就不需要面对婆家这么大的压力,也不需要因为隐瞒他们而感到这么痛苦。

好巧,我也挣扎了5年了。看医生对我来说也是另一种折磨。这里的中医西医我都差不多看遍了。也曾碰到无情的医生,看着看着直接把我打到忧郁症的谷低去。

很感谢你的鼓励。从我的旧部落格到现在,我的心境确实改变了不少。我不想再把怀孕当成我人生的唯一目标,也不想把我生存的价值仅限于当一个母亲。我告诉老公今年我要休息,养好身体。我要学会为自己而活,我要快乐。明年再作打算吧; 最终如果依然没有孩子我也没办法,能做的我已经做了。尽人事,听天命。当然,我依然期待有一天奇迹会发生在我身上。

在现在经济不景气的当儿,没有孩子对我来说是另类的赐福。至少我和老公不需要像其他有孩子的夫妇那样,担心失去工作。我们在这非常时期过得比很多人轻松多了。所以凡是从另一个角度去看,又是一片蓝天啊!你说呢?

让我们一起加油吧!^_^

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Mount Miriam Hospital - Merdeka Grand Charity Raffle

Mount Miriam Hospital is now having a Merdeka Grand Charity Raffle in aid of its IGRT Fund. They are targeting to raise RM1 million through this raffle draw.

What is IGRT?
IGRT is the abbreviation for Image Guided Radiotherapy. Mount Miriam Hospital recently replaced it's 16 year old Linear Accelerator with the Image Guided Radiotherapy (IGRT) - the most up-to-date and advanced technology in Radiation Oncology. This new IGRT machine shall further enhance their cancer treatment technique by enabling increased dosage delivery accurately to the cancer target and minimize corresponding dosage to critical organs and normal tissues.

Mount Miriam Cancer Hospital
Address: 23, Jalan Bulan, Fettes Park , 11200 Tanjong Bungah Penang ,Malaysia.
Website : http://www.mountmiriam.com
Email : enquiry@mountmiriam.com
Contact Person :
Jenny : 04-893 2232 (jenny@mountmiriam.com)
Lay Khay : 04-893 2235 (laikhay@mountmiriam.com)
Keith : 04-893 2236
http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=78371766419

Each ticket costs only RM5 and you even stand a chance to win one of the sponsored prizes.

Of course, I personally feel it is not right to contribute just because there will be a lucky draw. I once read that "true charity is the desire to be useful to others without the thought of recompense or reward". Hence, regardless of whether there is something in it for us, RM5 is not too much to ask. A mere RM5 out of your pocket could just mean a less feasty meal for you, but it could mean saving a life when accumulated.

" 勿因善小而不為,勿以惡小而為之 "

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Thursday, March 26, 2009

New Look

I spent the whole of last night to revamp my blog. I wanted to give it a fresh new look. Worked until late midnight and taa-daa! Now you're looking at my blog's new look! ^_^

Originally, I started blogging when I slumped into depression few years back. I needed a space to let out my frustrations, anger and misery caused by my infertility problems. Then I stopped because I just couldn't continue writing about my despair anymore. It hurts too much and I'm tired of feeling sad and incomplete all the time.

Late last year, a few friends started blogging about their kids. I envy them because I have no such stories to share. My blog was only filled with sorrow. Then I started this new blog because I wanted a new start. As I blogged, I am blessed with words of encouragement and support from good friends. A good friend started to share positive articles with me and slowly I'm uplifted from the gloom.

And so, I changed my blog name some time ago, to keep reminding myself to "dance even when I'm in the rain". This will be the place I share the stories about my quest to motherhood. This will be the place I want to share not only my sorrow, but about my happiness, my love, my life, my friends.

Some wonder why I do not post up my pic and details. I am not ready to publicly disclose my identity yet. Not until my miracle baby arrives. I need to protect myself and I have the obligations to protect my hubby and my family. My health problem remains a secret to most family members, especially my in-laws. I do not want them to stumble upon my blog while surfing on the web. I am still hoping that my in-laws will not have to find out about this - ever.

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Friday, March 20, 2009

肚子懒惰?????

昨天趁午休时间陪朋友到大众书局去晃晃。众所周知,皇后广场的大众就只有那么“大”。翻翻看看,走遍了整个书局就开始觉得有点无聊了。在等待朋友付钱的当儿,我无所事事地继续闲逛-虽然我在同一个地方兜了好多圈。。呵呵。。。

突然,我瞄到了一本书。“咦,远看好像是关于排毒的,肚子懒惰哦,好奇怪的书名。”好奇之下,就趋前去看,一看不得了,快把我笑翻了。想不到我们这里竟然还有人敢出版这种书耶!我对作者真的是佩服得五体投地。

大家也来“大开眼界”喽~~ 有兴趣对书本内容一探究竟的朋友,可以到皇后广场的大众书局去购买哦!呵呵。。。

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Friday, March 13, 2009

Set Yourself Free - Letting Go of Perfection

This is such a good article that a wonderful friend shared. It is indeed a mirror to myself.

How many times have I done things just to please other people, just to seek of their approval. How many times have I smiled and laughed with other people, but was actually bitter inside. There is nothing wrong to be imperfect, no one is perfect!

I've learned that the moment I begin to accept my "disability", I've liberated myself from the mental torture that I've been putting myself through this 5 long years. I still experience the emotional downs from time to time, but I feel better about myself now by trying to keep my spirit up and by being positive - by telling myself "it's ok". And I'm so thankful to be blessed with friends who constantly remind me that I'm not an alien. :-)

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It is good to remember that one of our goals in life is to not be perfect. We often lose track of this aspiration. When we make mistakes, we think that we are failing or not measuring up. But if life is about experimenting, experiencing, and learning, then to be imperfect is a prerequisite. Life becomes much more interesting once we let go of our quest for perfection and aspire for imperfection instead.

This doesn’t mean that we don’t strive to be our best. We simply accept that there is no such thing as perfection—especially in life. All living things are in a ceaseless state of movement. Even as you read this, your hair is growing, your cells are dying and being reborn, and your blood is moving through your veins. Your life changes more than it stays the same. Perfection may happen in a moment, but it will not last because it is an impermanent state. Trying to hold on to perfection or forcing it to happen causes frustration and unhappiness.

In spite of this, many of us are in the habit of trying to be perfect. One way to nudge ourselves out of this tendency is to look at our lives and notice that no one is judging us to see whether or not we are perfect. Sometimes, perfectionism is a holdover from our childhood—an ideal we inherited from a demanding parent. We are adults now, and we can choose to let go of the need to perform for someone else’s approval. Similarly, we can choose to experience the universe as a loving place where we are free to be imperfect. Once we realize this, we can begin to take ourselves less seriously and have more fun. Imperfection is inherent to being human. By embracing your imperfections, you embrace yourself.

Be confident and proud!

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Thursday, March 12, 2009

Celine Dion - Let's Talk About Love

In times like these, this is the song that all of us need! Regardless of race, skin color or religion, deep down inside we are all the same - we are humans.



Everywhere I go - all the places that I’ve been
我到过的每一个地方
Every smile's a new horizon on a land I’ve never seen
每一丝微笑都是陌生的土地崭新的天际
There are people around the world - different faces different names
这个世界上有许多的人 - 不同的面孔不同的名字
But there's one true emotion that reminds me we're the same...
却有一种情感提醒我 我们是相同的。。。
Let's talk about love
让我们来说爱

From the laughter of a child - to the tears of a grown man
从一个孩子的微笑到一个成人的眼泪
There's a thread that runs right through us and helps us understand
有一根线把我们所有人都连在了一起 让我们懂得
As subtle as a breeze that fans a flicker to a flame
像轻柔的微风把若隐若现的萤火吹成到熊熊的火焰
From the very first sweet melody to the very last refrain...
从最初甜美的回忆到最后的苦痛

Let's talk about love
让我们来说爱
Let's talk about us
让我们来说我们
Let's talk about life
让我们来说生命
Let's talk about trust
让我们来说信任
Let's talk about love
让我们来说爱

It's the king of all who live and the queen of all good hearts
它是万物之灵 美好心灵之母
It's the ace you may keep up your sleeve till the name is all but lost
它是你可以珍藏的法宝 直到生命渐渐消失
As deep as any sea - with the rage of any storm
它和大海一样深远 - 像风暴一般猛烈
But as gentle as a falling leaf on any autumn morn...
却又如秋日清晨的落叶一般轻柔

Let's talk about love - it's all we're needing
让我们来说爱 - 它是我们所需要的全部
Let's talk about us - the air we're breathing
让我们来说我们 - 我们呼吸的空气
Let's talk about life - I wanna know you
让我们来说生命 - 我要了解你
Let's talk about trust - I wanna show you
让我们来说信任 - 我要让你看
Let's talk about love
让我们来说爱

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Wednesday, March 11, 2009

New Motto, New Journey

I changed my blog title to "Dancing in the Rain". I guess there has been changes to my mentality recently. I'm tired of sulking, tired of being sad. So now, I've decided to learn to embrace what I have now, whether it's happiness or sadness. I've decided to learn to dance in the rain, to enjoy life even when life is not perfect! Who's is anyway! :-)

Like a friend said: "It's all in your mind." We decide whether we want to be happy or not. So why do I have to keep punishing myself for something that is obviously not my fault? There is more to life than this. My mission in life should not be limited to this only, my goals should not be limited to fulfilling other people's wants!

Not to say that I do not want a child of my own. I DO! I envy people with children to love, I envy their 'complete' families, I envy friends with babies whom they can endlessly brag about. I might do the same if I have babies. If I'm blessed with a child in the future, that will be my miracle gift that I will be ever so thankful for! If I'm destined to be childless, life goes on! Crying, sulking, blaming God, being angry will not help make my life any better, it will only make me miserable than ever!

Wish me luck in this new journey I've chosen to embark on!

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Dance Like No One's Watching

A good friend shared this with me a while ago.
True enough, this is exactly what we all tend to do. We always expect that things will change for the better and we always save the things we treasure for that special occasion. We fail to understand that everyday we live is a special day.

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We always convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, than another. Then we are frustrated that the kids aren't old enough and we'll be more content when they are. After that we're frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. we will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage.

We always tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together. when we get a nice car, and are able to go on a nice vocation when we retire. The truth is, there's no better time than right now. If not now, when? our life will always be filled with challenges. It's best to admit this to ourselves and decide to be happy anyway.


One of my favorite quotes comes from Alfred Souza. He said: "For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin-real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life." This perspective has helped me to see that there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So treasure every moment that you have.


And remember that time waits for no one. So stop waiting until you finish school, until you go back to school; until you get married, until you get divorced; until you have kids; until you retire; until you get a new car or home; until spring; until you are born again to decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy...


Happiness is a journey, not a destination. So, work like you don't need money, love like you've never been hurt, and dance like no one's watching.


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Thursday, March 5, 2009

知心难寻

在这地方工作也有8年之久了,这8年里也看到了各种品性的人;结识了一些交心的朋友,也看清了一些人丑恶的真面目。被朋友背叛对我来说已不是新鲜事。或许用“背叛”这两个字太言重了,或许只是我一厢情愿,那些人心里根本从来没把我当成真心朋友,那又何来背叛之说?

有些人说朋友就是要互相利用的,各取所需,没什么不对。这个观念真让人心寒,我无法苟同!

我并不是那种交游广阔,朋友满天下的人。朋友好交,知心难寻,我重质不重量。可以信任,可以谈心的朋友少之又少。日久见人心,好多原本以为是知己的好朋友,到后来都露出了可怕的真面目。她们让我心痛生气的所作所为,不尽让我怀疑我阅人的能力。我对人是不是太友善了?我是不是太没有提防之心,太容易相信人了?我想我该自我检讨。

掏心掏肺地真心对待,换来的却是锥心之痛。我愤恨她,对她伤心失望,可是更气自己太单纯太愚蠢。

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Life's Lessons

Words of wisdom...

- Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio -

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about..

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ' In five years, will this matter?'

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back..

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come.

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

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Tuesday, March 3, 2009

蔡淳佳 - 庆幸有你爱我

让我非常感动的一首歌。
确实,很多时候我们都被生活里琐碎的事蒙蔽了,就这样忘了生命里最重要的是什么。很多事情都不是理所当然的。愿大家都要学会珍惜身边的每一个人。




失去和拥有刹那的感动
人生有时候像一场梦
醒着的时候睁开了双眸
不如意的很多

朋友和情人来的来走的走
反反复复寻寻觅觅为了什么
要多少时间才能够了解
其实有你就足够

握着你的手走过快乐和难过
黑夜白昼我们都曾经拥有
人生是没有定律的一种节奏
不如用心去感受

快乐的一刻胜过永恒的难过
黑夜过后就有日出和日落
两个人走不会寂寞
每一刻都会珍惜都会把握
庆幸有你爱我

失去和拥有泪水和笑容
人生有时候像一场梦
累了的时候闭上的双眸
谁在回忆上游

多少的朋友来的来走的走
聚散从来都不给任何的理由
转过身以后才忽然感受
你一直都在背后

握着你的手走过快乐和难过
黑夜白昼每个人都会拥有
人生是没有定律的一种节奏
不如用心去感受

快乐的一刻胜过永恒的难过
黑夜过后就有日出和日落
两个人走不会寂寞
每一刻都会珍惜都会把握
庆幸有你爱我

握着你的手走过快乐和难过
黑夜白昼每个人都会拥有
人生是没有定律的一种节奏
不必在乎得太多

快乐的一刻胜过永恒的难过
黑夜过后就有日出和日落
只要和你一起度过
人生没几人懂我懂得把握
庆幸有你爱我

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Monday, March 2, 2009

如果时光倒流

有人捎来消息,有个朋友又添丁了。原本已有个女儿的他,现在又多了一个儿子。这对我来说,已经是个很圆满的家庭。我心里的感觉是很参杂的,为他感到开心,可是却也很羡慕妒忌。

这个男人曾经是我的追求者,可是我没有选择他。想想,这应该是他的福气。如果今天我是他的妻子,他岂能拥有这么美满的家庭呢?老公要不是娶了我,他何许承受这一切无奈。对其他夫妇看来轻而易举,理所当然的事;对我俩来说却难如登天,也是奇迹。

现在的我身心疲惫,身材走样,信心全无。活着也已成一种累赘;是对自己的累赘,也是别人的负担。我不喜欢怨天尤人,可是我想不到其他方法让我面对。我不断告诉自己只要尽人事听天命就可以,不要强求了。没有孩子就算了,老公到最后如果选择离开我也罢;这是我的命。可是为什么我心里还是有那么一点点的疙瘩,为什么我还是觉得这么苦,为什么我就是无法完完全全地放下。

如果时光倒流,让我从新走过,我想我会选择单身。何必累人累己呢?

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